Emotional Mode...

Wednesday, November 28, 2012





You touched my heart, you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.



Excerpt from Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt....


Laters Baby....



All Gone

Tuesday, November 27, 2012




Gone were the days that I am missing you, though I still think of you sometimes.

Gone were the days that I keep blaming myself for the break ups and misunderstanding.

Gone were the days that I feel sorry for myself for loving you so much.

Gone were the days that I take all the blame just for the relationship to survive. I’m done asking myself what's wrong with me. Gone are the days of self-pity and isolation.

I can never hide the scars you brought me for they are marks of my past and the symbol of my strength. I was able to move on despite the pain and sobs. I was able to wake up even with tears in my eyes. I was able to withstand the slaps of pain. As they all say, what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger. And you weren't strong enough to kill me—you were just so brave enough to leave me hanging, but too coward to be determined to keep me.

I can never count the tears I shed for you for they are the measurement of how much I wanted to be with you. I didn't regret loving you despite that we didn't end up together. Regrets won't do me good so I decided to befriend my past, but it doesn't mean that we can be friends. I just accepted you as part of my past but will never consider you as part of my future. Not that I am bitter, not that I’m still hurting but I am no longer interested.

I will never regret the days I am with you because those were the days that I am very happy. But I am strong enough to smile and keep it as memories... ALONE...

I would still thank you for coming into my life because you made me realize what love is. I knew that love is not all about laughter and good times, but it’s about laughing together at bad times. I knew how it felt to be left alone, how to be betrayed, to be disappointed and to wake up without you by my side.

You were the one I loved the most and you’re the one who gave me the most painful memories I can ever have. You made me stand up though I’m shaking inside. You taught me how to fake a smile when everybody’s laughing around. You made me cry the loudest though my mouth is shut.

Despite that, I remained alive. I withstand the pain just how it should be. I never imagined I made it without you. The rainbow came out finally and I never felt much better.

I have no intentions of falling in love again and be in a relationship until I’m totally okay. I don’t wanna be committed to someone when I know that some pieces of me are still missing. I’ll open my heart again when I know I’m complete, when I know I’m ready to be hurt again. But this time I’ll make sure it’ll be worth it.

I loved you. I missed you. I cried for you. I bled for you. I cared, I suffered and finally I moved on.

This time I’m determined. No more U-turns. There’s no turning back.




Credits to: Pirma at Pluma



Laters Baby....




Is this a Miracle?!?




Look at that.... Super avail.... Happy SEA peepz.....





Laters Baby...



My Bucket List






Since high school, I always create a list of those things I wish to achieve, dreams that I want to fulfill and those life experiences I want to experience before I die. My friends usually called it as my bucket list. I totally agree. Now that I'm in my mid-20's I decided yet to  create another list. Why not?!? I'm on my age of curiosity and reasoning and while I still have a lot of opportunities for possibilities. Let me share you my list.




1. Write and publish a book perhaps of my colorful life existence.



2. Sing in front of an audience (I hope my audience will be able to appreciate my frog-like voice) Ashihihihihihhhh...



3. Marry someone I love (perhaps a beach wedding)



4. Be a coach while I still play my own game



5. Climb a hill or a mountain then shout at the top of my lungs



6. Night swimming on a beach then sleep beside a bonfire with my friends



7. Travel around the world



8. Visit and give thanks to my favorite teacher



9. Run and play under the rain with my niece and sister



10. Ride a zip line even if I am afraid of heights.



11. Ride in a submarine



13. Be a great mother and wife



14. Capture the most beautiful smile and preserve it on a picture



15. Save a life



16. To find a star and name it after me



17. Ask for forgiveness to the people I caused pain and forgive those who caused me



19. Ride the Maid of the Mist boat ride



20. Live on a place where no one knows me and walk through the streets alone while admiring the place



21. Touch a giraffe’s neck



22. Learn to ride a bicycle and join a Triathlon



23. Learn to play the guitar



24. Get closure on all my hurt, grievances and unhappiness of the past



25. Learn to ice skate



26. Catch a firefly on my hand



28. Go ice fishing



29. Go on a road trip on random places



30. Learn to speak French



31. Do something completely crazy and out of character



32. Be a judge or a critic on a competition



33. Fly in a hot air balloon



34. Perform a kind deed to strangers without expecting anything in return



35. Swim on the dead sea



36. Witness an Aurora Borealis/Northern Lights



37. Have a dinner at the top of Eiffel tower



38. Fly a kite with my cousins on an old train railroad at home



39. Meet my favorite authors namely Mitch Albom, Paulo Coelho, E.L. James, Sylvia Day and Joy Fielding



40. Carve my name on a tree on that place I always call home



41. Go stargazing on a meadow



42. To experience the cherry blossoms in Japan



43. Write a letter for myself to be read 10 years from now



44. Write a letter for my future children



45. Experience the wild life in Africa



46. Bury a time capsule to be opened by my grandchildren



47. Tell to the people I love that I love them randomly



48. Kiss the one I love under the rain



49. Visit a castle in England



50. Visit the Colosseum in Rome



51. Send a message in a bottle on a beach/ocean



52. Make promise of love in front of the Taj Mahal in India 



53. Touch other people’s lives to be remembered and to prove my existence



54. Experience bungee jumping



55. Make a difference




And this list will go on and on.... There will always be that something I will wish to fulfill in the near future... Anyway, the only constant in this world are changes....








Laters Baby....












In My Wildest Dreams...

Wednesday, November 21, 2012



Last week I cheated on Christian Grey because of Gideon Cross...
This week because of Professor Gabriel Emerson...



Amfff.... Hoping and wishing.....



Laters Baby....




Think Before You Ink...

Monday, November 19, 2012

Dawn my eyes on this script... I want this one ink on me... I swear... I have been planning to have a tat since God knows when and I still want it now....








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While Waiting....

I can't resist the urge to read and so while I'm waiting for Entwined with You (Crossfire Series) and Requiem (Delirium Series) my colleague advised me to read The Wind Up Bird Chronicle. Let's see if it is really a good read.






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Waiting for Log-Out...

Friday, November 16, 2012

4 hours and 30 minutes more and its my RD... My long awaited RD... Will spend it with my family and friends...


What's in store...



1. Early Christmas shopping...



2. Tom's World...



3. Hard Rock Cafe Makati



In short... No sleep for me.... Ashihihihihihhhhh...




Laters Baby...



The Place I Will Always Call Home...

Thursday, November 15, 2012

I was born and raised in Pasay and even though we already transferred to ParaƱaque, I will always be a Proud PasayeƱa... It took me years to finally have the guts to visit my homeland or should I stay the specific street I've lived in. That place is so close to my heart however I've also experienced some of my worst in there as well. Sharing pix....


M. Santos... The place I called home...


A + Arianne... Sisters for life...

 A...

In my friend's house while their pet tiger is still sleeping...

Achilles... You're so big na...



Laters baby....




Jampaylupz At Its Finest

This is my most loved team.... We all treat each other as brothers and sisters... The best team... Missing them soooooo much....


Last day that we are complete... Missing Mommy Au and Mike so much...


Tagaytay Team Building...

Kheng + TC Tynie + A + Mhel + Mommy Au + Markie + Mike...

A...

Jampaylups invades Tito Mars...

Markie + A + Antok Mike...

Smoking Area Shot...

A + Marou + Markie + Kheng + Abe + Mike...

Sa Smoking Area ulit.... Mhel + Marou + TC Tynie + Mommy Au + A + Kheng....

Busy si Marlon oh... Siya lang nagtatrabaho...

Breakfast Date in Something Fishy...

Coleen + Marlon + Mommy Au + D + Marou + A + Migs + TC Tynie.... 

Migs + A...

Kasama si Blue... Himala...

D bakit super lungkot mo...

TC Tynie... Our Mudra... The only one...

Jampaylupz wearing blue... One team... One goal...

Jump Shot...

70's Invasion...

Oh davah... Lahat kami naka tie-dyed shirts... Except for Mhel...

Team Jampaylupz is the best...

Outside the office...

We love to take pix....

Despedida Party ni Kaye...

New Year's Party...

Mhel + Kheng + A + D...

Reunion shot ng Team Jampaylupz... 

A with Tina's oink...

A + Abe + Tina's oink + D...

A + Fil + Abe + D...





Laters Baby....