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I was born wd ORIGINAL SIN,

GREW UP lyk UNSEEN..

PRONE to make MISTAKE,

coz OFFENLY i MISBEHAVE..

LIVIN' LIFE wd lotz of CONDITIONS,

SEEIN' THINGS wd IMPERFECTIONS..



my KNOWLEDGE is INCOMPLETE,

but im READY to COMPETE….



LOVE is why im HERE,

FRUSTRATION is my ONLY FEAR..

LOVIN' UNCONDITIONALLY,

but HURTIN' UNREASONABLY..



PERCEPTION is DIFFERENT,

OPINION is CONSISTENT….



i LAUGH over LONELINESS,

CRIES over HAPINESS..

coz WEAKNESS is my STRENGHT,

n STRENGHT is my WEAKNESS….



YESTERDAY made mi STRONGER,

TODAY im a FIGHTER..

TOMORROW keeps mi BREATHIN',

CREATIN' my FATE WORHT LIVIN'….



ALWAYS TALKIN' wd CHARACTER,

NEVER b a POSER..

coz LIARS can get NO TRUST,

only GENUINE will GAIN RESPECT….



PERFECTION, dat will NEVER b mi,

AFFECTION, is all you can GET from mi..

coz NEVER will i HOLD ON,

to YOU that i can NEVER CALL MY OWN!





LOOKIN' UP to my CREATOR,

BOW DOWN to YOU my WARRIOR..


i SURRENDER my LIFE to YOU my SOLDIER,

my ONLY MASTER!



''''MUCHOS_GRACIAS_MI_DIOS''''

Know Me Better Assholes!!!!

This post are for those nasty persons who keep pestering my life and wants to pry on my personal life. Back Off!!! Go to Hell Assholes!!!




@Song playing at the moment?

-> i stay in love with you by mariah carey


@My reason for living?

-> my family, mah friends, the additional blessing from GOD and my will to live....


@Do u think your crush is sexy?

-> uuuhhhmmmm, i don't have one


@Ever donated blood?

-> yap...


@Fave color(s)?

-> all shades of blue with a little touch of pink for my feminine side...


@Accessories you usually wear?

->watch, bracelet, necklace,,, and mah favorite ring


@One song to describe a heartbreak?

-> one last cry, negative things


@Last place you went in?

-> my dad's house


@Last person who disappointed you?

-> uhhmmm.... -----


@The most boring sport?

-> is there a boring sport???


@Ever had a baby?

-> yap...


@The funniest movie you watched in the past?

-> a lot....the most recent is you don't mess with the zohan


@Any piercings or tattoo?

-> ears,,, i used to have one in my tounge.... and i'm planning to have one again...


@The most romantic gift?

-> a dvd of my favorite movie plus a lot of roses though i don't really buy receiving flowers...


@Sang on stage before?

-> yap.... elementary days...


@Struck by lightning before?

-> what a silly question...... ashihihihhh ^_~


@Dance with the one you loved before?

-> yap... and i love it and....


@Ever wished you could turn back time?

-> many times yes, mostly now....


@What would you think each day you wake up?

-> thank God for a new day, wish things were different plus if my -- still ----- me???? ashihihihihihhh ^_~


@three songs that's meaningful to you?

-> weak- sisters with voice

-> saving forever for you- shanice

-> you are beautiful- james blunt


@What will you do after this?

-> listen to my trainer because i'm on-training right now....


@One thing you totally regretted doing?

-> loving somebody who is worthless and is super insensitive.... probably loving beyond my capacity


@Do people like you?

-> i know some.... but i know not all... haler... i can't please everybody!!!!


@What was the last game you played on the computer?

-> ZUMA....


@Someone who means a lot to you at the moment?

-> mah siblings, mah dad, mah mom, jefifay, maya, tc chelle, kuya alex, anna, my baby???...


@The color of your mobile phone?

-> blue... ashihihihhh ^_~


@Do you hate someone at the moment?

-> honestly speaking, yap but i want to eradicate the feeling....


[Marital Status]:

~ single....hayz...


[Shoe size]:

~ it varies but mostly 7 1/2 to 8

[Parents still together]:

~ nope....

[Siblings]:

~ 3


[Pets]:

~ two dogs, a japanese poodle


FAVORITES


[Color]:

~ all shades of blue with a little touch of pink

[Animal]:

~ dogs

[Drinks]:

~ green mango shakes, blueberry shakes

[Soda]:

~ orange soda


[Book]:

~ tuesdays with morrie, celestine prophecy

[Flower]:

~ tulips, now i love roses


DO YOU


[Color your hair?]:

~ yap.....

[Twirl your hair?]:

~ yap

[Have tattoos?]:

~ nope,,, i don't intend to have one


[Cheat on tests/homework?]:

~ yap.... who doesn't anyway....

[Drink/Smoke?]:

~ i used to smoke, still drink occassionally but i can't now... ashihihihhh ^_~

[Like roller coasters?]:

~ b4 nope coz i'm afraid of heights,,,, now yes....

[Wish you could live somewhere else?]:

~ yap

[Like cleaning?]:

~ yapie....


[Write in cursive or print?]:

~ both

[Know how to drive?]:

~ yap....

[Own a cell phone?]:

~ yap.

[Ever get off the damn computer?]:

~ i don't think i'll ever will

HAVE U EVER



[Been in a fist fight?]:

~ yap

[Considered being a hooker?]:

~ nope

[Lied to someone?]:

~ sad but yes

[Been in love?]:

~ yap.... so much... up to now

[Been in lust?]:

~ yap.... ashihihihhhh^_~

[Held a gun]:

~ nope....

CURRENTS



[Current clothing]:

~ pink mango blouse with a light blue pants...

[Current mood]:

~ dejected....

[Current taste]:

~ sweets

[Current hair]:

~ straight but i'm planning to get my hair curled.... ^_~

[Current thing(holding)]:

~ keyboard

[Current cd in stereo]:

~ mariah carey's e=mc2

LAST



[Last book you read]:

~ celestine prophecy,,, again... ashihihihihhh ^_~

[Last movie you saw]:

~ batman: the dark knights

[Last thing you ate]:

~ waffle flavored yummy choco.....

[Last person you talked to on the phone]:

~ mempz n -----

OTHERS

[Do drugs?]:

~ nope..

[Believe there is life on other planets?]:

~ think so

[Remember your first love?]:

~ a little but the recent will forever be in my mind...

[Still love him/her?]:

~ nope,,,^_~

[Read the newspaper?]:

~ yap...

[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]:

~ a lot

[Believe in miracles?]:

~ yap.... so much

[Do well in school?]:

~ welllllllll.....

[Wear hats]:

~ sometimes... depends on my mood

[Hate yourself?]:

~ nope, i hate somebody else

[Have an obsession?]:

~ yap....shoes and accesories

[Collect anything?]:

~ yap.... shoes, bags and accesories

[Have a best friend?]:

~ yap

[Close friends?]:

~ a lot

[Like your handwriting?]:

~ sort of... ^_~

[Care about looks]:

~ not all the time...

LOVE LIFE

[First crush]:

~ a guy named oddrey... did i spell it ryt???

[Do you believe in love at first sight?]:

~ before no, but now yap... it happened

[Do you believe in "the one?"]:

~ yap...

ARE YOU A



[Bitch/Asshole]:

~ with mah girlfriends i guess....

[sarcastic]:

~ sometimes

[an Angel]:

~ to some of mah peepz yap...

[Devil]:

~ sometimes, to ----- yes

[Shy]:

~ depends...

[Talkative]:

~ yap.... i am.... i admit it...

1 MINUTE AGO:

* reading my girl best friend's blog

1 HOUR AGO:

* surfing the net, drinking my medications

1 DAY AGO:

* visiting my ob-gyne

1 YEAR AGO:

* this time of the year talking to somebody on the phone

I LOVE:

* my baby angel

I HATE:

* biatchesss and -----

I FEEL:

* happy and very blessed but somehow dejected

I HIDE:

* my true feelings

I DRIVE:

* used to drive the revo and jaguar of my frend...

I MISS:

* my late father, my baby brother mempz, and how i used to be before

I LEARNED:

* to grow up, act for my age and be strong

I NEED:

* more time to think about the things happening to me and the situation i've entered because of my foolishness

I THINK:

* i should be ready for all the consequences of my actions and for a bigger responsibility

FIRST PART 2...

First screen name:

* Aivi

First piercing:

* ears

First credit card:

* ooohhhh jesus......

First enemy:

* si kuya... higpit kc but now, medyo nlng

First musician you remember hearing in your house:

* mah guardian....

LAST PART 2...

Last car ride:

* hayz, my friend's vios.... he accompanied me to the hospital

Last kiss:

* no comment

Last movie seen:

* batman: the dark knight

Last food consumed:

* waffle flavored yummy choco

Last phone call:

* mempz

Last CD played:

* mariah carey's e=mc2

Last drink drank:

* water

Last time scolded:

* uhmmm a week ago....

SHORT ANSWER..



I AM: Aika

I WANT: to take life to the fullest

I HAVE: a good friend by my side

I WISH: i could totally forget the things that had happened and disappear from the very instance

I WONDER: why things didn't work out the way i planned it

I ALWAYS: stay in Niño's crib until the wee hours of the night

I DANCE: in the tune of my neck, my back

I SING: often

I CRY: a bucket of tears and still crying

I AM NOT ALWAYS: in the mood to walk

I WRITE: journals and poems

I WIN: my friend's heart and trust

I LOST: a very good lasting relationship

I GOT CONFUSE: with what i really want in life

I SHOULD: think a hundred times before i decide into something....

FAVORITES..



NUMBER(S): 07, 15, 16, 1824

COLOR(S): all shades of blue wid a touch of pink

MONTH(S): january, june, august, october, november

SONG(S): saving forever/cupid/weak/you are beautiful

SEASON: spring

DRINK(S): orange soda, green mango shake, blueberry shake, lemonade and watermelon shake



IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...

CRIED? yes, a bucket

HELPED SOMEONE? yes

GOTTEN SICK? yap

GONE TO THE MOVIES? no, wish i could

SAID 'i love you'?: yes (to jepipay for always being there for me)

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: yap, a week ago

WRITTEN IN A DIARY? no, don't think i ever will write in a diary again, blogs of course

HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes, with the coffee talkers (jeff, tc chelle, etc.) they wish i could work out my situation

HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes

Please Stop!!!

There are a lot of things that are happening around me but at least there are lots of people who are very willing to support me, guide me, take good care of me and believe in me. I have been very busy with my on-going Level 2 training and I've been very blessed with an additional blessing by God. I would just like to say to those people who are constantly trying to put me down to stop pestering my life. I am very quiet now. You are not hearing anything from me nor from my group of friends. Please don't make the complicated situation even more complicated. Stop acting like a child. I am happy now. Be happy as well!!!

I Stay In-Love With You

Oh baby
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point 
Then I highly doubt you ever will 
I really need you to give me 
That unconditional love I used to feel It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go 
But I kept on hanging on 
Inside I know it's over 
You're really gone 
It's killing me 
Cause there ain't nothing 
That I can do 
Baby, I stay in love with you 

And I keep on telling myself 
That you'll come back around 
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down 
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do 
But baby, baby 
I stay in love with you
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love. 

READ THIS LINK!!!!!

READ THIS!!! THIS IS FOR YOU!!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!

MY PAIN AND BITTERNESS!!!