Monday, November 7, 2011

Re-Post with a new Answer..........

This is what is happening when you don't have anything to do....

@Song playing at the moment?-> Angel's Cry by Mariah Carey ft. Ne-Yo

@My reason for living?-> My niece Princess Jewel and my will to live...

@Do u think your crush is sexy?-> super hot!!!!

@Ever donated blood?-> yap...

@Fave color(s)?-> all shades of blue with a little touch of pink formy feminine side...

@Accessories you usually wear?-> watch

@One song to describe a heartbreak?-> one last cry, negative things

@Last place you went in?-> office...

@Last person who disappointed you?-> Ryan

@The most boring sport?-> Is there a boring sport???

@Ever had a baby?-> yap...

@The funniest movie you watched in the past?-> a lot....the most recent is Zombadings....

@Any piercings or tattoo?--> ears,,, i used to have one in my tounge.... and i'm planning to have a tattoo...

@The most romantic gift?-> IPhone 4

@Sang on stage before?-> yap.... elementary days...

@Struck by lightning before?-> what a silly question...... ashihihihhh ^_~

@Dance with the one you loved before?-> yap... and i love it and....

@Ever wished you could turn back time?-> Not anymore!!! Everything happens for a reason!!!

@What would you think each day you wake up?-> thank God for a new day, wish things were different plus if me and ---- will still got back together???? ashihihihihihhh ^_~

@three songs that's meaningful to you?-> weak- sisters with voice -> saving forever for you- shanice -> you are beautiful- james blunt

@What will you do after this?-> go home since I am just waiting for my colleague's shift to end

@One thing you totally regretted doing?-> loving somebody who is worthless and is super insensitive.... probably loving beyond my capacity

@Do people like you?-> i know some.... but i know not all... haler... i can't please everybody!!!!

@What was the last game you played on the computer?-> Nancy Drew... Phantom Of Venice

@Someone who means a lot to you at the moment?-> mah siblings, mah dad, mah mom, kheng, tina, dean, tc tynie, the whole Jampaylupz....

@The color of your mobile phone?-> black....

@Do you hate someone at the moment?-> no...

[Marital Status]:~ single....hayz...

[Shoe size]:~ it varies but mostly 9 1/2 to 10

[Parents still together]:~ nope....

[Siblings]:~ 3

[Pets]:~ two dogs, a japanese poodle

FAVORITES[Color]:~ all shades of blue with a little touch of pink

[Animal]:~ dogs

[Drinks]:~ green mango shakes, blueberry shakes

[Soda]:~ orange soda

[Book]:~ tuesdays with morrie, celestine prophecy

[Flower]:~ tulips

DO YOU[Color your hair?]:~ yap.....

[Twirl your hair?]:~ yap

[Have tattoos?]:~ nope,,, intend to have one... Alibata

[Cheat on tests/homework?]:~ yap.... who doesn't anyway....

[Drink/Smoke?]:~ went back to smoking, still drink occassionally but i can't now... ashihihihhh ^_~

[Like roller coasters?]:~ b4 nope coz i'm afraid of heights,,,, now yes....

[Wish you could live somewhere else?]:~ yap....

[Like cleaning?]:~ yapie....

[Write in cursive or print?]:~ both

[Know how to drive?]:~ yap....

[Own a cell phone?]:~ yap.

[Ever get off the damn computer?]:~ i don't think i'll ever will

HAVE U EVER[Been in a fist fight?]:~ yap

[Considered being a hooker?]:~ nope

[Lied to someone?]:~ sadly but yes

[Been in love?]:~ yap.... so much... up to now with Ry...

[Been in lust?]:~ yap.... ashihihihhhh^_~

[Held a gun]:~ nope....

CURRENTS[Current clothing]:~ black see-through top with a black cardigan and a black slacks with a metallic doll shoes (all black)

[Current mood]:~ sleepy....

[Current taste]:~ sweets

[Current hair]:~ straight but i'm planning to get my hair curled.... ^_~

[Current thing(holding)]:~ keyboard

[Current cd in stereo]:~ no longer buying a cd since I have an ipod

[Last book you read]:~ BLADE.... ashihihihihhh ^_~

[Last movie you saw]:~ Zoo Keeper

[Last thing you ate]:~ Nagaraya

[Last person you talked to on the phone]:~ Ryan

[Do drugs?]:~ nope..

[Believe there is life on other planets?]:~ think so

[Remember your first love?]:~ a little but the recent will forever be in my mind...

[Still love him/her?]:~ nope,,,^_~ (Si Ry,,, uu)

[Read the newspaper?]:~ yap...

[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]:~ a lot

[Believe in miracles?]:~ yap.... so much

[Do well in school?]:~ welllllllll.....

[Wear hats]:~ sometimes... depends on my mood

[Hate yourself?]:~ nope

[Have an obsession?]:~ and accesories

[Collect anything?]:~ yap.... shoes, bags and accesories

[Have a best friend?]:~ yap

[Close friends?]:~ a lot
[Like your handwriting?]:~ sort of... ^_~

[Care about looks]:~ not all the time...

LOVE LIFE[First crush]:~ a guy named oddrey... did i spell it ryt???

[Do you believe in love at first sight?]:~ before no, but now yap... it happened

[Do you believe in "the one?"]:~ yap...

ARE U A[Bitch/Asshole]:~ I am definitely a BITCH!!!

[sarcastic]:~ sometimes

[an Angel]:~ to some of mah peepz yap...

[Devil]:~ yap... I am an angel and a devil rolled into one....

[Shy]:~ depends...

[Talkative]:~ yap.... i am.... i admit it...


1 HOUR AGO:* surfing the net, eating

1 DAY AGO:* sleeping

1 YEAR AGO:* this time of the year, taking in calls

I LOVE:* my baby angel

I HATE:* biatchesss

I FEEL:* happy and very blessed but somehow dejected

I HIDE:* my true feelings

I DRIVE:* used to drive the revo and jaguar of my friend.... driving my aunt's crv for a road trip or Ryan's Nissan Xtrail

I MISS:* my late father, my baby brother mempz, how I used to be before and what Ry and I have had in the past....

I LEARNED:* to grow up, act for my age and be strong

I NEED:* a fucking stress free days

I THINK:* i should be more focus on my ambitions


First screen name:* Aivi

First piercing:* ears

First credit card:* ooohhhh jesus......

First enemy:* si kuya... higpit kc but now, medyo nlng

First musician you remember hearing in your house:* mah guardian....


Last car ride:* Ryan's Xtrail

Last kiss:* Ryan

Last movie seen:* Zoo Keeper

Last food consumed:* Nagaraya

Last phone call:* Sam

Last CD played:* using IPod now

Last drink drank:* Mountain Dew

Last time scolded: * I'm not being scolded anymore


I AM: Aika

I WANT: to take life to the fullest

I HAVE: good friends by my side

I WISH: Ryan would grow up and act for his age

I WONDER: why things didn't work out the way i planned it

I ALWAYS: stay in Ryan's house... Rooftop and his bedroom to be exact....

I DANCE: in the tune of my neck, my back

I SING: often

I CRY: a bucket of tears and still crying

I AM NOT ALWAYS: in the mood to walk and to go to work...

I WRITE: journals and poems

I WIN: my friend's heart and trust

I LOST: a very good lasting relationship

I GOT CONFUSE: with what i really want in life

I SHOULD: think a hundred times before i decide into something....


NUMBER(S): 05, 14 and 15

COLOR(S): all shades of blue wid a touch of pink

MONTH(S): may, october, november

SONG(S): saving forever/cupid/weak/you are beautiful/angel's cry/ you gotta be

SEASON: spring

DRINK(S): orange soda, green mango shake, blueberry shake, lemonade and watermelon shake


CRIED? nope....



GONE TO THE MOVIES? no, wish i could

SAID 'i love you'?: yes (to Ryan for always being there for me)

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: nope.... was about to... a resignation letter....

WRITTEN IN A DIARY? yap, blogs of course

HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes, with Ryan


Pissed Off

Sunday, October 9, 2011

I really need to get this boiling odium out of my system or else I could kill somebody!!! Where else can I vent out but here in my blog... I hate to admit it, but there are a lot of people around me who's so selfish and self-centered. Just two cents of my thought.... The world does not revolve around you and you alone. There are a lot of people far important from you and whatever plans you make. Get real!!!! Live a life!!!

Broken-hearted Girl

Friday, September 23, 2011

Learn to love someone who would never make you cry, If he hurts you real bad, then why don't you say goodbye?! You see, men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible... So don't feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them ... (,")

Haters Qoutes...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Got a hater in your life? You might like these quotes!

1. Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them more.

2. Don't hate cuz I'm cute and sweet; hate cuz you can't compete.

3. Don't hate me because I wasn't who you thought I was or who you wanted me to be. From start to finish you never knew the real me.

4. Don't hate me because I'm beautiful; hate me because... Well, okay. Hate me because I'm beautiful.

5. Hating is the sincerest form of flattery.

6. Don't hate what you can't imitate.

7. Hated by many. Confronted by none.

8. Haters only hate the things that they can't get and the people they can't be.

9. Haters wanna play hard. I won't pretend to be mad. I'll just disregard you like my memory's bad.

10. Hating on a certain name only gives them fame.

11. If you don't like me remember it's mind over matter; I don't mind and you don't matter.

12. If you hate me or what I'm reppin then click the [x] and get to steppin!

13. It's better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not.

14. Keep looking my way. My head is held high. You wanna bring me down? I dare you to try.

15. Love me or hate me. Either way I'm on your mind. .

16. So many assume. So little know.

17. They can't hurt you unless you let them.

Something Not A Lot Of People Knows About Me

Friday, September 16, 2011

1. A lot of people knows I am a coffee neurotic but honestly, the reason why I love coffee is that I cannot function without coffee.... REALLY!!!

2. I have a lot of phobias... Does come up with the blog name coffeephobia despite me being a coffee addict.

3. Sarcasm is my second language.

4. I love spontaneity.

5. I love having my alone time and do what I wanna do.

6. I am not a morning person. Yip. Still haven't change. Insomniac still sucks the hell out of me big time.

7. The sight of blood makes me faint. Happened a lot of time already.

8. I have a freakishly good memory when it comes to dates and events.

9. I do admit I can be very bitchy at times but that doesn't mean that I can't be a true friend to others.

10. All haters think I am the MEAN GIRL but the truth is I was just used to saying two cents of my thoughts.


Thursday, September 15, 2011

Ang pagsuko ay hindi pagpapakita ng kahinaan, sadyang may mga bagay lang talaga na hindi na kayang gawan pa ng paraan kahit gaano mo pa gustong lumaban....


Doing while Avail...

Friday, September 9, 2011

To Ryan Jay,,,,

I hate to admit it but we are better off as friends....

I'm too old for cliches and cheesiness... Sorry,,,, I am indeed just an imperfect person living in this so-called imperfect world.

I still love you though as a friend...

But that's all I can give...

I realized that I still misses Ryan James Javier so much... When are we going to see each other again ha POGI????


Monday, September 5, 2011

He taught me how to love, but not how to stop.

-=Aivi =-

Movie Marathon

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Currently watching 10 Things I Hate About You.... Again??? Ashihihihhhhh..... Love the poem... Read it and be in-love...

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
not even close…
not even a little bit…
not even at all.

Of Past love...

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Old Text ng ex ko na hanggang ngayon super important pa rin sa akin, remember mo pa kaya...

Sabi ko kakalimutan na kita, pinilit ko di ko kaya, sinikap ko ang hirap pala, ano gagawin ko, umiwas, magtago, Saan??? Maliit lang ang mundo ko, umiikot lang sayo.....

I'm still saving this text message.... It's been 5 years and still nasa old phone ko pa rin siya. Ashihihihihihhhhhh....

Larv It!!!

Monday, August 29, 2011

"In this lifetime,you cannot avoid GOSSIPS and UNKIND WORDS from other people. I mean, whatever you do. You will never be able to please everybody. It is a universal precept and you cannot dodge it. So quit trying.

Enjoy your life and let them be. But remember:

Don't resent the fact that people keep checking on you, besides, if YOU weren't WORTH anything... they wouldn't BOTHER.."

The Rules of Being Human

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for as long as you live. How you take care of it or fail to take care of it can make an enormous difference in the quality of your life.

You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time, informal school called Life. Each day, you will be presented with opportunities to learn what you need to know. The lessons presented are often completely different from those you think you need.

There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error and experimentation. You can learn as much from failure as you can from success. Maybe more.

A lesson is repeated until it is learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it (as evidenced by a change in your attitude and ultimately your behavior) then you can go on to the next lesson.

Learning lessons does not end. There is no stage of life that does not contain some lessons. As long as you live there will be something more to learn.

“There” is no better than “here”. When your “there” has become a “here” you will simply discover another “there” that will again look better than your “here.” Don’t be fooled by believing that the unattainable is better than what you have.

Others are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself. When tempted to criticize others, ask yourself why you feel so strongly.

What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you create with those tools and resources is up to you. Remember that through desire, goal setting and unflagging effort you can have anything you want. Persistence is the key to success.
The answers lie inside of you. The solutions to all of life’s problems lie within your grasp. All you need to do is ask, look, listen and trust yourself.

Bursting Out....

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

It's sad to see when a person whom you thought would be honest with you would lie to your face over something so irrelevant. And here you thought your friendship was deeper than that. Guess what. You were wrong. She lied.

Hey you, ponder over what's important in life.. if you're really honest with yourself then maybe you'd learn to be honest with others as well. Maybe you'll stop finding other people's faults and concentrate on fixing your own... Stop psychoanalyzing me and analyze yourself.

To be the better person and just let things be. To find happiness with people you least expect..

To finally be in a place where you just stop trying and caring about what other people will think and say...

To start pleasing yourself and not others...

And when a friend lies to you, do try and understand the reasons behind that lie...

From Mah Most Loved TC

Monday, August 22, 2011

When someone walk out of your life, let them. There's no use on wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah, you may miss them, but remember that you weren't the first one to give up.

-=Tynie Tiozon=-


Sunday, August 21, 2011

I was looking for some inspiration when I came across this, and while reading through it, I couldn't help but realized how true each and every statement is...

I'm not sure who wrote this, but since it's written in the form of the 1st person, then I guess it's because these are things that we SHOULD tell ourselves.. That these are the things that we've learned in life...


I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care some people just don't care back.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but whom you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And, just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt, and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned that heroes are people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you can’t.

In Excess:

Experience is really the best teacher in life.


Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Sometimes, in our incessant efforts to find the person we love, we fail to see and appreciate the people who love us. We would miss out on so many wonderful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. We keep on looking so far away when all we needed to do was look behind us.

They say that one will find rewarding happiness not with the man she loves but with the man who loves her more. To "go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words". I believe that the best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance --far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love within your being.
When you let someone go, it doesnt necessarily mean you have to stop loving that person. It only means that you're allowing that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back. To let go is not just setting that other person free, but yourself as well --- you are setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you may keep in your heart.
Bitterness may rare away your strength and weaken your faith. The experience of pain may dishearten you, but you should not allow that. Instead, it should let you grow, in wisdom bearing it. Pain will only make us stronger and wiser.

Sometimes, we'd think that we have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But though this can sustain life, it can never give us enough room to grow. We tend to be stuck in the past that we sometimes end up losing ourselves. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but then again, real peace and happiness will only come once we've accepted of what reality is today.

Then there comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone we get so intensely attracted to. This attraction soon becomes part of our daily lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and our actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing for us and all they can offer is a platonic relationship, we start our desperate attempts to get noticed and be closer but in the end, all our efforts are unrewarded and we end up just feeling sorry for ourselves.

One does not really need to forget someone he/she has fallen for. What is needed though, is to learn to accept reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Trust me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone MORE DESERVING. Don't let your heart run your life. I've made that mistake before. We should learn to be sensible and let our minds speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well... You'd be surprised on how irrational one is when letting emotions run her life.

Always keep in mind that if you lose someone today, it only means that someone better is coming tomorrow. Or next week. Or next year. Who knows? Be patient. It will come. If you lose love, it doesnt mean that you failed in love. CRY if you have to. Cry until your eyes run dry but make sure all those tears wash away all the hurt, the hate and the bitterness that the past has already left you.. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

As for me, I'm still waiting.... but I know that when HE comes, everything will be worth it. :)

Random Thoughts

Saturday, August 13, 2011

"In the end, only three things matter ---

how much you LOVED,
how gently you LIVED,


how gracefully you LET GO of things not meant for you..."

Thoughts to Ponder

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right.Love the ones who don't just because you can.

Believe everything happens for a reason.

If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.If it changes your life, let it.

Kiss slowly.

Forgive quickly.

God never said life would be easy. He just promised it would be worth it.


Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Sometimes change is what's best, letting your heart break and learning how to cope.

-=Ryan James Javier=-

Love and More Love...

Monday, August 1, 2011

Hate is not the opposite of love.
Because hating someone means you care enough to feel so strongly about the person.
So the real opposite of love is Apathy.
To simply not care at all shows how irrelevant that person is to you .

-Aika Belga

While @ Work....

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Carry yourself in such a way that when people are sitting, you would be STANDING.
And when they are standing, you will
and when they stand out, you'll be
and when they dare to be outstanding, you will be their STANDARD. :)

Love, Love, Love

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

"Cinderella walked on broken glass,

Sleeping Beauty let a whole lifetime pass.

Belle fell in love with a hideous beast,

Jasmine married a common thief.

Ariel walked on land for love and life,

Snow White barely escaped a knife.

It was all about blood, sweat, and tears
Because love means facing your biggest fears."

Drama.... Part 1

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I'm here @ Starbucks enjoying my favorite cup of Venti Caramel Macchiato with my newly found bezzy Mel and Tina... Hope Kheng's here with us though... I just finished having a lunch date with my TC Janel and teammates.... I suddenly realized one thing... I think I am falling for him... Yes... Him... I'll juz keep his name on my own for a while though... Yes, its kinda hard to fall in-love with somebody who doesn't even know your worth... Somebody who's really sweet but doesn't care.... Somebody who will love and care for you but doesn't care about your existence,,, Somebody who blatantly says he loves you but doesn't wanna commit... Guys will always be guys,,, I'm so sick and tired of being the other half.... I'm sick of loving beyond my capacity but was taken for granted... Insensitive... Que Bruto.... Yes... I hate him for his insensitivity, but I love him more for that... I hate the fact that I can't take him out of my system.... Random thoughts during unrestless day....