And Its You Again

Thursday, February 28, 2013






I woke up less energetic today due to lack of sleep. As always like my normal routine for the past two years or so, I got out of my bed, brushed my teeth, ate my early dinner and took my bath. I was getting ready to leave for work when I received your call. I was not expecting to hear from you though and I wish I never heared from you today but I couldn't change that. You left me heart broken yet again. And this entry is yet again for you.

I loved you like the air I breathe and I still do. I doubt that I will ever stop loving you. You were the only man I ever met that made me feel safe. You came into my life when I was going through so many changes and you still loved me in spite of all of those things, even though you could never admit it, was too stubborn to. You reeled me in, despite all of my common sense, despite knowing what I knew of you, had me considering the unthinkable… I could tell you anything, everything, or nothing—it didn’t matter. You were the only man that could really make me laugh that the mere thought of having just a conversation with you makes me feel so relaxed. I refused to give my everything to you way back, because I'm afraid you will just leave me hanging, despite this you still tried to understand my weaknesses and failures. But I know, you can only have a fair share of this and you finally gave up. It took me a while to get over you and when I finally did let go, you started coming back. I tried to stay away and not communicate with you but it's so hard, you are persistent. We became friends, best of friends and it did gave me that pinch of hope that we could still end up together when you once told me that you would win my heart back but we didn't. You have found the one, the girl whom you would spend the rest of your life with. I know this is wrong but I did wrote this entry because my mind needed to however it’s obvious that my heart and my body are deeply connected and I don’t know if that will ever change. And here's my confession, I was afraid that you would leave me again once I take you back in my arms. I know that in love pain is inevitable, that I should take chances but with you, it seems difficult. It took me years to get over you and I knew when you leave me hanging once again it would be a great fall, that I will not be able to withstand it. You had that effect on me. And yes, until now you still do.

I'm only telling you all of this because you are right, you do deserved to know what hold me back to run into your not long ago free hands. I also know that its better to tell it to you personally but I know I wouldn't be able to look you in the eye and tell you all of this since I can barely type in the words here in my computer.

They keep telling me you were a coward, you're afraid of rejections and you're the type who doesn't want to wait and I’m sure they’re right but everything feels so wrong without you and I don’t know how to fix that right now.

I will leave you in peace. I don't think this time around we can still remain friends, best of friends, that things will be like the way it was before. You deserve the happiness you're experiencing but I also deserve mine. I have loved you, still love you and will always love you. You will always have that space in my heart. But that's just how our relationship would end.






Laters Baby...





I Still Love You...

Tuesday, February 26, 2013







Random Thoughts....



I still love you because I do. I can't change it. It's not my choice. I wish I didn't, but that's how love is. I can't say a word about you. I have to forget about you. I wish you didn't make it so difficult for both of us. There are things I wish I could tell you. There are many things I need tell you, but I can't find the way. I can't find you. Your way of looking into life is different from mine. I can't change it. It's not my choice. I wish I didn't love you. I wish I'm no longer in-love with you. I can't forget about you. I just wish it could all work out like it once happened.





Photo Credit: www.desicomments.com






Laters Baby....





ESCA TEAM BUILDING AT ITS BEST...

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Its been a long time coming. We have been planning to have our second team building since God knows when, however due to our schedule and how vital our role is as an ESCA agent it didn't push through not until yesterday. Take a glimpse of our world...







On the way to our location...




We must all hang together, or assuredly, we shall all hang separately.
- Benjamin Franklin





Kuya Al + Ghee + Abe....


Overpass pose...


Laguna...


Gray + the two buddies...


I Love Calamba...


SM Calamba...



The View...


Kuya Al...


The Bloggers... Ghee and Abe...


Where are you?!?


Dean + Abe + Kuya Al + Ghee...


Gray + ER...


Gray and ER again... 


Its as if they are dating.... LOL...


The lovebirds...


D + Abe + Ghee + Gray.... The Bloggers United...


Kuya Al, why the sad face?1?

Overpass Loving...


The Three Roses...


D in his blogger pose...


Gray in his blogger pose...


And they are even...


Meet-up...








The Location....




Overcoming barriers to performance is how groups become teams.




Harong ni Charing (check this site: http://hncbb.multiply.com/) is such a cozy place... I love the place since it is really ideal for get together, team buildings and family outings....




Tell me where the light is...


The pool...


Entrance...


Design 101...


Harong ni Charing...


The Bathrooms....


Design 102...


Design 103...


Design 104...


Veins...


Let's do some pool lapse...


Our Room...


Top shot of the pool...


The Road...

Close to nature yet again...



Favorite design of D...


Look at that terrace...


Entrance night shot...










The People behind the ESCA Team...





Coming together is a beginning.
Keeping together is progress.
Working together is success.
- Henry Ford




Gray + Abe... What's with that look Abe?!?


Hey what are you doing to my boyfie...


Gray mimicking Nora Aunor... LOL...


 Ghee in her own version of blogger pose...


Abegail...


Gray... Profile picture pose...


Ghee + Gray + Abe...


 Gray...


And I'm not in this pix... Why?!?


Gray as Spiderman...


Blurry Shot...


TC Diana the Emotera...


A cooking....


KC + Nina...


TC Diana again...


Abegail is so ready for a swim...


KC our singer...


Kuya Al...


Proud Harte-Hanks Employee...


TC Diana and Er...


Part two...


Christian is so damn happy...


Nina + TC Diana + Kuya Al + A + Abegail + KC...


Ghee + Nina...


Let's toast to that...


Sleepy Gray...


Red Horse lavin....


Partners in Crime...


Our own version of Anne Curtis-Smith...


D...


A singing her hearts out...


Chika Mode...


And the boys are here... Kuya Oddie + Darryl (back) + Ross + Markie...


D + Gray...


Markie + D + Jay + Darryl + Ghee...


Abe + Nina + Ghee + Markie...


And I am so hungry...


TC Diana...


Darryl + Kuya Oddie + Ross + TC Diana + A...


Markie + Gray + KC listening to TC Diana...


Let's eat...


The guys shot...


ER + Gray spreading love...


ER slouching...


Nice group shot...


Ghee + Nina...


Kuya Al + A...


Ross and TC Diana...


TC Diana + Markie...


Kuya Al + TC Diana...


D + TC Diana...


Nina...


Who run the world... Girls...


TC Diana... Approve...


TC Diana tummy tuck...


D + A + Gray + TC Diana...


The Duo...


Gray listening to Christian's point...


Jay is so dang serious...


TC Diana doing her sermon...


A...


The bloggers... Girl Version...


We are so young now...


Patweetums...








Let's do that pool lapse....




Teamwork doesn't tolerate the inconvenience of distance.





Markie + D... First to take a dip...


D the swimmer...


Markie + TC Diana + D...


Markie... The boy next door...


Pool Fun...


The ESCA Girls...


TC Diana floating....


TC Diana...

Ghee + Abe... The hips man...


Peace...


Floating Shot...


I think this is KC's foot....


Group Shot...


TC Diana yet again...



Happiness...


Spot the difference...


Whawhattt....


And yes, we are having fun...


Christian all alone...


Happy Rian...


A cup of coffee...


We are girls and we love having fun...


Trying the floating shot...


TC Diana can't get over with the floating shot...


Splash...


Rian doing his thang....


Mr.Muscle... Choz...








Party Like There's No Tomorrow....




Wild ducks make a lot of noise, but they also have the sense to benefit from occasionally flying in formation.
- Unknown




ER + Kuya Al...


Drank look...


Kuya Al is taking care of ER...


Wake up ER....


Can't stand up straight ha...


And hell yeah, ER is so drank... (evidence 101)


Music makes the world go around...









Sleep Well....




Laugh and the world laughs with you, snore and you sleep alone.




ER + Gray + Kuya Al...


Ross + Jay + Kuya Oddie + Christian...


D + Nina + Darryl...


Ghee (solo)


Markie (and that's our bed...)


KC + TC Diana....








Good Morning Sunshine...





Morning look...


A cup of coffee...


What's for breakfast guys...


Sweet Tams...


Freshness A...


Getting ready...


Ghee + A....


KC is hungry?!? Huh?!?


Say ahhhh.....


Nina singing again...


D + Abe...


What's up....


KC...


Abe + TC Diana...


Nina + D...









We are ESCA... 




None of us is as smart as all of us.
- Ken Blanchard





Perfect shot except for the photo bomber Darryl...


Goofy Shot...


ESCA... (yes, we are one...)


Stolen Shot...


Looking up above...


Still talking...



It's always fun to spend quality time with people you know you can trust... Until our next team building...





Photo Credit to Abegail....




Laters Baby....