Anotha Blahzzz.....

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

All I need is one thing or maybe one person. That big word ONE that will prove to me that they are all not the same. Just ONE please. I am sick and tired of wasting my time, efforts and love for the wrong person. Just ONE please. But sometimes, I think I need to stop questioning why??? Accept reality and facts as what it is and believe that it is just simply what it is. Everything happens for a reason and turmoils will teach you a lot of things. At the end of the day, you will consider it as a learning experience.

Just a Piece of my mind!!!

Anyway, you cannot say that you have experienced love, love in its deepest meaning if you haven't learned to let go yet. Love is accepting everything and being happy for that certain person, even if it means letting that person go. Love is when you are happy when that person is happy even if it is with somebody else's arms. If you love truly, there is no you but only that person and that person alone. That is love in its sublime value!!!!

Thanx Mucho!!!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I would like to extend my sincere gratitude to those people who stand by my side after the turmoil that had just happened to me. Thanx mucho to my friends, to Jepoy, to Maya, to TC Chel, TC Jen and to Mac. I definitely know where to stand now. I am okay, beginning to move on and is trying to forget about what had happened. I know it will be long. moving on is not easy but at least a lot of people are trying to win my genuine smile back. I can't deny the fact that I am sad inside since according to Maya, a lot of people might seem to see me strong but she can definitely see in my eyes that I am not happy. I am trying don't worry guys!!!! Sooner or later this will end and I can say that I won the battle. Proudly say that I won the battle. I never did anything wrong. I have love deeply. Love in its sublime value but the only mistake I did is choosing somebody not worthy of all the love, efforts and sacrifices. You'll soon realized it at the end. Always at the end. I guess, Mac is right. I may have a wounded heart but at least I am still complete for I did my part in winning him back.

Thanx Mac for always being there for me!!!
In times of my ups and downs!!!
In times of my sorrows and heartaches!!!
In times of my hardships!!!
In times of my suffering!!!
In times that I am totally alone and deserted!!!
Big Thanx for accepting me as me!!!

Just Posting!!!!

I am in-love but I am also in pain.
I am trying to keep a broken piece of my heart intact.
If you should ask why???
I am still in-love with you but you are not!!!!

Isn’t this true:
We enter relationships as a somebody and leave them as a nobody.

To You:

I can’t talk to you anymore, it’s not that I am mad at you, it’s just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can’t have you and that makes me love you even more.

To You Bastard...

Monday, July 28, 2008

My Bucket is Full....

I've been blessed with a group of friends that will support me all the way, their family that is super supportive and a loving supervisor, that I feel guilty to complain. I am currently down right now and I do admit that some of it was my mistake. I need to be strong for those people who loved me so much and is willing to sacrifice frantically everything for me.

Denial is a defense mechanism' postulated by Sigmund Freud, in which a person is faced with a fact that is too uncomfortable to accept and rejects it instead, insisting that it is not true despite what may be overwhelming evidence.

The next time you try to judge me, I suggest you take a walk in my shoe. Because I tell you, it ain't easy.

The next time you play the arbiter of someone else's life, check yours first. Is it wonderful? Is it clean? Does it bear no false act? Because if it doesn't, you won't hear a single thing from me.

The next time you spread a rumor about me, I'm gonna have to ask, is it the right flavor? Or maybe even, the right kind of bread?

I'm going to slap this to you for the first and last time. You declare your life is blissful and carefree now. You are showing me that you are so happy with what had happened. You are letting me feel the pain. You make me feel so bad and you are showing everybody else that you are doing fine and that you are blissfully correct. You treat mine as a curse, and something that is filled with sorrow and regret. If that be the case, if your life is so perfect, THEN WHY STILL HATE MINE AND WHY BEING SO BITTER ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED???!!!!???


How dare my ex-boyfriend insinuate that I could tolerate such a diabolical insult from a scrap of humanity such as Him. He had already proved to me and to my colleagues that He is no such thing as a wallpaper. Would that not be enough??? For a guy, he got himself a sharp tongue, talking to everybody about his woes, rants and blablahsss.

(BEWARE: That sharp tongue might kill you someday boy!!!) I can't imagined Him retreating without having to say the last word. And He did. My instinct once again proved it. He did retaliate. Well, I'll be the one whose gonna retaliate now!!!


Be ready, boy...... You'll gonna read one explicit blog. You're sick, insufferable. You're imbued with fanatical prejudice against girls like me and girls in my league and you are a chauvinistic pig. Doesn't it ever registered in that warp brain of yours that once upon a time we became lovers. We shared almost everything. You once swore undying love for me that now I am sure is untrue. It was just one of your sweet talks to capture my heart. It is only now that I realized that you are truly not in-love. And now, you're telling me I'm the one whose fabricating stories. Aren't you ashamed of talking shit like you are a bitch.... You are a fabricating, egoistic brute, Boy..... I admit I am still mending a broken heart. I am beginning to hate you for all the pains you've brought me through, but sooner or later I'll be doing fine. I won't hate you anymore for at that time I won't be in-love with you so there's no more reason to hate you at all!!!

In Excess:

I'm not posting this shit for nothing. Just want to prove to the whole web blog community, Girl Power. I'm not bitter. I just want to explain my side.


Reality Stinks

After a month of so called blissful moments with a man not worthy of all the sacrifice, the road has finally ended. After a lot of sacrifices I made and even taking my life away he still won't believed in me. So, I finally decided to let go even if it hurts a lot. I finally realized, I made a very huge mistake in choosing him over somebody who really loves me so much and is willing to give his life away for me. I'm just glad that I still have the chance to mend everything!!!! Thanx Mucho Brando!!!

Reality really SUCKS!!!
You'll just realize your mistake
at the end of the journey!!!

Missing You Much. . .

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Sometimes life is so unfair. You thought that you have everything and yet reality will strike back at you saying, you can never have it all. You need to be satisfied and you need to sacrifice. Things are better that way. I have hurt a lot of people in my short journey to life. Though, it may not seem I am doing fine, I am hurting deep down. I may be happy in the outside but my inside is bleeding. I know that he doesn't deserved to get hurt. I became his world and yet I was a fuckwittage to get out of his world. I am definitely hurting!!!

I miss you so much Brando...

Loving Life....

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Blissfully happy right now.

Can't wait to see Batman....
July 17 has been marked on my calendar....