To That One Best Friend That Drifted Apart...

Friday, December 4, 2015

I hope this post finds you on a day that is filled with joy and excitement. You're living your life to the fullest and I couldn't be more thrilled for you.

I'm not so sure if we're as close as we were before but I totally get it because things have changed in our friendship. Its just that this feeling of melancholy is really getting into my nerves and the only way to get it out is by posting it.

I always hear about people losing touch with their best friends but never think it will happen to us. I’m not sure what exactly caused our subtle drift apart, though I believe the distance and lack of communication played a hand in it.

I hate this feeling when realization dawns that we are drifting apart. I noticed our conversations are getting fewer and the efforts just isn't there like it used to be. I've tried to hold on, but it just keeps slipping further and further away.

I realized that I was holding on to something that didn't exist anymore. That the person I missed didn't exist anymore. People change and so is the friendship. The things we used to like and dislike changed. 

Is it just me though?!?

But why is it that the feelings are less sensitive now. You used to know exactly when something is bothering me and then completely turn that roller coaster of emotion around for you know what exactly to say to make me feel better. 

Our friendship is a big part of what made me who I am. I know it sounds cheesy, but it’s true. When we first became friends, I clung on to that friendship with a death grip.

We go weeks – sometimes even months – without talking and I used to miss you so much when when that happened, but to be honest, it never seemed like you missed me. And because of that, I guess I stopped missing you. When I look through pictures of the two of us, it’s bittersweet. I miss the connection we used to have, back when I knew everything about your life without having to pry for information. There are a million and one ways to contact you (thanks to social media), but I still have no idea what’s going on in your life or what the stories are behind the pictures you post. Now it seems all we’re left with is the occasional “How are you?” text, and “Happy Birthday” message, and less-than-promising plans to catch up with each other.

I want to thank you for being the brilliant person you are and for making such an impact on my life. I wish you nothing but the best in your new life. And while it breaks my heart a little bit to know that the distance between us will inevitably increase, I know that things will be wonderful for you.

You are going to change the lives of everyone you meet in the years to come. Because I don’t think anyone can meet you and not be taken aback by your unbridled enthusiasm and unfettered passion for life. I know it’s a tad selfish of me to say this, but there’s really no one like you. There’s no replacement for you. There’s no one who could make my life quite as colorful as you have. And even though I’m not sure if it’s my place to miss you terribly, I do and I will continue to.

Laters Baby,

Post It Again...

Monday, November 2, 2015

I recently got the urge to re-post this stuff for the third time... Let's say I'm really curious if there are a lot of changes in this Q and A Form...

@Song playing at the moment?

-> Wish I May by Alden Richards (lyrics so damn good...)

@My reason for living? 

-> My family, my friends, ALDUB (insert LOL here) and my reason for living...

@Do u think your crush is sexy?

->  I don't have one right at this very moment...

@Ever donated blood? 

-> Twice actually....

@Fave color(s)? 

-> Still love all shades of BLUE with a little touch of PINK for my feminine side...

@Accessories you usually wear? 

-> I don't think I can ever leave my house without a watch on....

@One song to describe a heartbreak? 

-> Negative Things....

@Last place you went in? 

-> Smoking Area....

@Last person who disappointed you? 

-> Still the same person... Weird....

@The most boring sport? 

-> Is there a boring sport??? 

@Ever had a baby? 

-> Toink....

@The funniest movie you watched in the past? 

-> Honestly, I don't go to movie houses anymore... Except this coming December for My Pabebe Love....

@Any piercings or tattoo? 

-> Ears... I used to have one in my tongue.... TAT?!? --- Yes... Both arms.... (Finally)

@The most romantic gift? 

-> I guess a handwritten letter....

@Sang on stage before? 

-> I did...

@Struck by lightning before? 

-> Still a silly question....

@Dance with the one you loved before? 

-> I did... 

@Ever wished you could turn back time? 

-> Nope... Everything happens for a reason...

@What would you think each day you wake up? 

-> Thank God for a new day, wish things were different....

@three songs that's meaningful to you? 

-> Weak- Sisters with Voice 

-> Saving Forever For You- Shanice

-> You Are Beautiful- James Blunt 

@What will you do after this? 

-> Do my audits....

@One thing you totally regretted doing? 

-> Probably loving beyond my capacity....

@Do people like you? 

-> I know some.... but I know not all... 

@What was the last game you played on the computer? 

-> Text Twist...

@Someone who means a lot to you at the moment? 

-> My siblings, my dad, my mom and my ever cutie niece Princess Jewel...

@The color of your mobile phone? 

-> Black...

@Do you hate someone at the moment? 

-> Nope....

[Marital Status]: 

~ Single and loving it....

[Shoe size]: 

~ it varies but mostly 9 or 9 1/2

[Parents still together]: 

~ Nope


~ 3 


~ two dogs, both are Japanese poodles... I want a Siberian Husky though....



~ all shades of blue with a little touch of pink 


~ dogs 


~ green mango shakes, blueberry shakes 


~ orange soda 


~ Tuesdays with Morrie, Celestine Prophecy 


~ Tulips....


[Color your hair?]: 

~ Yes....

[Twirl your hair?]: 

~ Yes...

[Have tattoos?]: 

~ Funny, I used to say that I don't intend to get a TAT but now I have two (both on my arms)

[Cheat on tests/homework?]: 

~ yap.... who doesn't anyway.... 


~ Both....

[Like roller coasters?]: 

~ I do... (Funny thing is I have this huge fear of heights)

[Wish you could live somewhere else?]: 

~ Probably go back to that place I always call HOME....

[Like cleaning?]: 

~ OC...

[Write in cursive or print?]: 

~ both 

[Know how to drive?]: 

~ yap.... 

[Own a cell phone?]: 

~ yap. 

[Ever get off the damn computer?]: 

~ i don't think i'll ever will 


[Been in a fist fight?]: 

~ yap

[Considered being a hooker?]: 

~ nope

[Lied to someone?]: 

~ sad but yes

[Been in love?]: 

~ I did....

[Been in lust?]: 

~ yap.... ashihihihhhh^_~

[Held a gun]: 

~ nope....


[Current clothing]: 

~ Blue top with a touch of neon green, pants

[Current mood]: 

~ Happy

[Current taste]: 

~ sweets (Mik-Mik particularly)

[Current hair]: 

~ straight but i'm planning to get my hair curled.... ^_~

[Current thing(holding)]: 

~ keyboard

[Current cd in stereo]: 

~ Wish I May by Alden Richards (Proud ALDUB fan)


[Last book you read]: 

~ Re-read The Notebook...

[Last movie you saw]: 

~ I forgot....

[Last thing you ate]: 

~ Mik-Mik...

[Last person you talked to on the phone]: 

~ Deanmark Tortosa


[Do drugs?]: 

~ nope..

[Believe there is life on other planets?]: 

~ think so

[Remember your first love?]: 

~ a little but the recent will forever be in my mind...

[Still love him/her?]: 

~ nope,,,^_~

[Read the newspaper?]: 

~ yap...

[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]: 

~ a lot

[Believe in miracles?]: 

~ yap.... so much

[Do well in school?]: 

~ I did....

[Wear hats]: 

~ sometimes... depends on my mood

[Hate yourself?]: 

~ Nope...

[Have an obsession?]: 

~ Shoes, Accessories, Bags, Books, ALDUB

[Collect anything?]: 

~ ALDUB Memorabilia... Shoes, Bags, Watches...

[Have a best friend?]: 

~ yap

[Close friends?]: 

~ a lot

[Like your handwriting?]: 

~ sort of... ^_~

[Care about looks]: 

~ not all the time...


[First crush]: 

~ a guy named oddrey... did i spell it right???

[Do you believe in love at first sight?]: 

~ Sort of....

[Do you believe in "the one?"]: 

~ yap...



~ with my girlfriends I guess....


~ sometimes

[an Angel]: 

~ to some of my peepz yap...


~ Sometimes...


~ depends...


~ I am....


* PM with Ferdz


* tweeting about ALDUB


* Sleeping....


* this time of the year talking to somebody on the phone


* my baby angel


* biatchesss and -----


* happy and very blessed


* my true feelings


* used to drive the revo and jaguar of my friend...


* my late father, my little angel Godwin and how I used to be before


* to grow up, act for my age and be strong


* more time to sleep and relax


* I should be ready for all the consequences of my actions and for a bigger responsibility


First screen name: 

* Aivi

First piercing: 

* ears

First credit card: 

* ooohhhh jesus......

First enemy: 

* si kuya... higpit kc but now, medyo nlng

First musician you remember hearing in your house: 

* my guardian....


Last car ride: 

* My friend's car... 

Last kiss: 

* no comment

Last movie seen: 

* Totally forgot....

Last food consumed: 

* Mik-Mik

Last phone call: 

* Deanmark Tortosa

Last CD played: 

* Wish I May by Alden Richards

Last drink drank: 

* Water

Last time scolded: 

* A decade ago...


I AM: Aika 

I WANT: to take life to the fullest 

I HAVE: a good friend by my side 

I WISH: I could have more time for sleeping and relaxing

I WONDER: why things didn't work out the way I planned it 

I ALWAYS: stay in NiƱo's crib until the wee hours of the night 

I DANCE: in the tune of my neck, my back 

I SING: often 

I CRY: a bucket of tears

I AM NOT ALWAYS: in the mood to walk 

I WRITE: journals and poems 

I WIN: my friend's heart and trust 

I LOST: a very good lasting relationship 

I GOT CONFUSE: with what I really want in life 

I SHOULD: think a hundred times before I decide into doing something.... 


NUMBER(S): 05, 10 and 15

COLOR(S): all shades of blue with a touch of pink 

MONTH(S): May, October and December

SONG(S): saving forever/cupid/weak/you are beautiful 

SEASON: spring 

DRINK(S): orange soda, green mango shake, blueberry shake, lemonade and watermelon shake


CRIED? nope...




SAID 'i love you'?: Yes, to my cutie little niece Princess Jewel

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: haven't done this for a very long time

WRITTEN IN A DIARY? no, don't think I ever will write in a diary again, blogs of course 

HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: with Ferdz....


Laters Baby...

That ALDUB Effect

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

And I'm back.... I know... I know... I've been M-I-A for a very long time ... Having a writer's block is so overrated as an excuse but I have it to blame.

One conversation can lead to another though which explains this blog post...

Let me share my 2 cents... (Note: This is a back entry since I've created this post way back September 25,2015. Pardon me for posting this late.)

I have been very vocal that I have a lot of guy friends. I've practically grew up with my guy cousins as well. Technically speaking you can consider me as one of the boys minus the boyish outfit and such... Since I grew up surrounded by guys, I knew all their secrets and their carefree ways when it comes to girls and their perspective when it comes to courtship.

Gone were the days of going to one's girl's house and asking permission from the parental if they can woo their precious daughter.

Gone were the days where guys would exert effort just to get that Magical YES.

In the present time, sending SMS, instant messages from Facebook and Viber replaced handwritten letters and such...

I understand that and is completely okay with that (Hey!!! You... yes you... don't give me that eye-roll, I grew up in the modern era)

Everybody knows me well enough as one ALDUB fan girl. I'm one of those who continuously tweet and go gaga with every Kalye Serye Episode but that doesn't mean that I will rave and create a post just for that.

But what strikes me the most and one of the reason for creating this post was my previous conversation with a guy friend whom I've known since college.

Ran was one typical modern day guy. He doesn't like to put extra effort in courting the girl she has an eye for. Courtship doesn't exist in his vocabulary. For him, courtship is just putting the guy's best foot forward.

However, change is the only constant thing in this world. It is indeed inevitable.

One sunny afternoon, while sipping my favorite Caramel Frappucino Affogato Style coffee and while checking for twitter updates, Ran asked me about my thoughts on why ALDUB is an in thing and why there are a lot of people who's so into it...

CTTO: Split Screen Pa More....

I said my piece, ALDUB is an epitome of traditional romance. It depicts the Filipino fairy tale dream. A  simple girl with an over-bearing, overprotective granny being wooed by a knight in shining armor = Romance.

Simple as that.

I wasn't expecting his thoughts though.

Ran: Alam mo naman, hindi ako naniniwala sa ligaw. Arte lang yan. Kung kayo, kayo.

Me: I know.

Ran: Pero, pare nung pinanood ko yung Eat Bulaga kanina narining ko si Alden nung sinabi niya kay Sam YG na Chivalry is not dead.

Me: Blank Face (What's on my head though was, where is this convo going?")

Ran: So, sabi ko, anong pinagsasabi nito. I tried searching for the Kalye Serye episode since sabi ni Ry, panoorin ko daw ng matuto ako.

Me: Go on...

Ran: Ayun na nga, nakita ko yung ginawa ni Alden when he payed respect to Yaya Dub's parents. And I was like, pakitang tao naman to.

Me: Okay...

Ran: And then the date itself, wow... Yung feeling na gusto na niyang lapitan yung girl and gusto niyang habulin pero naisip niyang sundin yung habilin ni Wally.

Me: Yah, I'm a fan girl. I know that. I've watched every single episode. So, what's your point?!?

Ran: I've realized, this Kalye Serye is teaching me something. Alden set an example on how to win one girl's heart the right way. Sabi, nga nila, mas masarap pag pinaghirapan mo kasi alam mong kahit anong mangyari, ano mang problemang dumating sa relasyon, ipaglalaban mo kasi pinaghirapan mo. Hindi mo basta basta itatapon yun. I've learned that in order for a relationship to last, you have to learn to fix what's broken and that I should always put an effort for it to last.

Me: Dumb founded

What can I say.... Eat Bulaga and Kalye Serye is not just for that kilig effect... It is indeed a must see because of all the lessons its inculcating not only in the minds of the young ones but of those old ones.

Bravo for that.

Laters Baby....

Bucket List 2.0

Monday, October 26, 2015

I know I've been MIA for a very long time... Work load has piled up and I did have a very hectic schedule... Thought of sharing some changes on my Bucket List Today Though...

Posted this entry way back 2012 I think and I had to cross some of it... Yes... This is my way of checking if I have indeed fulfilled some of my Bucket List for the past 3 years...

1. Write and publish a book perhaps of my colorful life existence.

2. Sing in front of an audience (I hope my audience will be able to appreciate my frog-like voice) Ashihihihihihhhh...

> Yip... I had conquered my fear of singing in front of a lot of people. Still sing like a frog though... Ashihihihihhhh...

3. Marry someone I love (perhaps a beach wedding)

4. Be a coach while I still play my own game

5. Climb a hill or a mountain then shout at the top of my lungs

6. Night swimming on a beach then sleep beside a bonfire with my friends

7. Travel around the world

8. Visit and give thanks to my favorite teacher

9. Run and play under the rain with my niece and sister

> Best day of my life should I say....

10. Ride a zip line even if I am afraid of heights.

11. Ride in a submarine

13. Be a great mother and wife

14. Capture the most beautiful smile and preserve it on a picture

15. Save a life

16. To find a star and name it after me

17. Ask for forgiveness to the people I caused pain and forgive those who caused me

19. Ride the Maid of the Mist boat ride

20. Live on a place where no one knows me and walk through the streets alone while admiring the place

21. Touch a giraffe’s neck

22. Learn to ride a bicycle and join a Triathlon

23. Learn to play the guitar

24. Get closure on all my hurt, grievances and unhappiness of the past

> I have indeed gotten that closure.... And to be honest, I feel more complete than ever...

25. Learn to ice skate

26. Catch a firefly on my hand

28. Go ice fishing

29. Go on a road trip on random places

30. Learn to speak French

31. Do something completely crazy and out of character

> Been tagged as JOLOGS for supporting ALDUB but who cares... Spending time to go to Philippine Arena just to support their cause but who cares... Yes, I know, its completely out of my character and its completely crazy... Crossing this out though...

32. Be a judge or a critic on a competition

33. Fly in a hot air balloon

34. Perform a kind deed to strangers without expecting anything in return

> Through the past 3 years since I posted this entry, I can say that I did that random act of kindness shindig more than once... Happy A indeed...

35. Swim on the dead sea

36. Witness an Aurora Borealis/Northern Lights

37. Have a dinner at the top of Eiffel tower

38. Fly a kite with my cousins on an old train railroad at home

39. Meet my favorite authors namely Mitch Albom, Paulo Coelho, E.L. James, Sylvia Day and Joy Fielding

40. Carve my name on a tree on that place I always call home

41. Go stargazing on a meadow

42. To experience the cherry blossoms in Japan

43. Write a letter for myself to be read 10 years from now

44. Write a letter for my future children

45. Experience the wild life in Africa

46. Bury a time capsule to be opened by my grandchildren

47. Tell to the people I love that I love them randomly

48. Kiss the one I love under the rain

49. Visit a castle in England

50. Visit the Colosseum in Rome

51. Send a message in a bottle on a beach/ocean

52. Make promise of love in front of the Taj Mahal in India 

53. Touch other people’s lives to be remembered and to prove my existence

54. Experience bungee jumping

55. Make a difference

There are a lot left to be crossed-out but at least I'm making progress... Yes, indeed I am a work in progress... I'm learning from different people everyday. I am inspired by random people who give back to the world. 

Laters Baby....